thats a mega typo right there with the title
i dont know what to say
was in the shop 1 min ago to get some paper for my freinds baby girl
she will have soon, im exsisted for her
the shop owner i know but she seemed very er not talkative like she is normaly chatty
dident know its because i have not seen her in ages or something else??
anyway i dont care :3 i look crap enough as it is :P with the stress i have on my sholders i dont need anymore!
wahhh only day off i have had this week , i had a good sleep for once
aww the hamsters awake :3
ohh my sister told me her bf might propose to her
how sweet right X3
i was like um ok "are you sure you wanna go ahead with this?"
because its a life changeing thing i guess lol
then agen its like there marryed already i meen they live together so a wedding is no diffrant
wow a wedding in my line of generation! god im getting old 0__o
its really strange! shes younger than me too!
do i have a bf?
no and i never had and i never plan a wedding eather! im not intrested
ooooooooooo *forever alone* :O
aww what so i dont have someone to order me around? lol
do the dishes
make me a sandwich
go to the room for sexy time
dont go out dressed like that
aww you seeing other men "wtf"
wow really >> why are men so grumpy
men scare me sometimes!
i dont wanna go into it!
if im gonna be with a man
he has to be the right one!
na i will find someone
lol i dont think so with a face like mine
though the thought is nice, to have a bf but ugh *wispers* i wish he was japanese :3
i have thought about a wedding i would like, IF i have one!
i dont like it when people go , oh i want a wedding like this when i am older!
and people say oh when will you get marryed?
like some japanese idols come out with things like when im 30 or 40!
ok no one knows when your gonna get marryed!
i dont, and i dont think i ever will , but i might
i dont put a age limit on when i wanna marry , it will happen when it happsns
if not then so what :3 im alright with it!
but the thought is nice
now then what kind of wedding will i have?
hmm well i love the greek look , its ment to be "romantic" right?
btw i hate romance
*giggles* "thats because you cant get a bf buhahahahaha*
oh jeeze thanks xD
english men never appeled to me so :P yeah
i rather be happy with someone i want insted of someone to be with for the sake of others or people who are desprate, please dont throw yourself at anyone because there is someone out there for all of us, good things come to people who wait!
because its just denying yourself, i see girls on tv like oh look i have a bf what do u have!
its like em ya sweety you have a bf but i can look at every guy i want without someone complaneing! xD
i love jonnys entertament! i would hate my other half going, stop watching the japanese guys on the net and sit with me!
whoooh mate you cant boss me around! i liked them wayyyyyyyyyyy before you, i told you this
we can have fun time later xD
if your with me dear you have to accept jonnys entertanment aswell xD!
so off track so ya the greek look!
the history side greek goddess kind of this with all water eliments in there aswell natrual and cultural aswell!
i love greece btw, been there 2 times and loved it, the food people and culture was lovely :D
so ya my wedding would be greek themed
but if the guy i marryed was japanese <333333333333333333333333 i would make it a japanese wedding! he can arrange everything!
changeing the subject
i have lost so much waight
i saw my reflection in the mirror and burst into tears
its true, i hate mirrors, i told a few people they think im crazy but its been this way since i was 11!
god i feel like a elderly lady, people sayed to me
"emma you look so skinny" i thought it was great, i felt really light but also weak aswell!
i only recently seen myself in the mirror, and god i look terrible
im really trying harder to eat now!
you have no idea how hard eatting is for me, i look at food sometimes and think i cant eat that >.< but i try :D i do!
and the stress is takeing its toll, im even whereing make up , i never do to hide the paleness and the dark eyes!
thanks all to this stupid operation, ya i have suffered from it but im gonna over come it, and try hard to eat and stuff i go out alot working but i need energy too!
i shower alot and my skin is toterly dry, i am a red head after all!
hmm i do need to take care of myself more and im trying :D
i just pray to god thats nothing moved, i dont sit properly and its probs moved something!
if so thats going under the knife agen and i cant do it!
it ends now and i will put my foot fowerd and try and make myself better agen
i know its been months now since the op but like the doctor sayed what you have had done is like being hit by a truck
oh oh really? "thanks for that doc, could of told me BEFORE >:("
shesh lol
anyway other peoples suport have helped me
some look at me like my god whats happend to you!
i really need to put on some waight ugh
um oh yeah i wanted to share this :3
( shun yen )